saturday

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..

when you hear a sound like that,

you know there's some thing.
now what that 'some thing' is,
that's the thing that'll keep our minds brewing.

can be a good thing,
or can be the 'other-not-so-good-thing' thing.

So what is it.. that thing Thing??
(haha, confused na ako.)

there's always reasons behind these heavy long sighs.

and i cant seem to point a finger on it
or equate them into words.

sometimes its hard to find words to express the moments,
events,
or feelings
that meant everything to you.
most of the time, words cant even give justice.

so you settle with a sigh.
and hope to God, someone hears it.

***

i've been drinking a lot of coffee lately
i am convinced, caffeine does not affect me anymore.
but i give it a try anyway.

sometimes i find myself caught in the nasty web of extremes
pulling me back and forth to two different poles.
not thinking or over-thinking.
hating or loving
being too caring or being too apathetic
do i let the chips fall where they may
or do i fight for what i deserve?

it feels like the world is playing a trick on me.
and i seem to be on the losing end.
but we all know (from experience) the 'seemingly seems' may not always be the reality
in most cases,
they always turn out to be the opposite of what really is.

i know i have a choice...
i guess, i just have to make one
to win.