i've moved on..

kay roy..

he used to send me cds

write me in cute cards

sing to me

while strumming his guitar.

sabi nya gusto daw ako ma-meet ni melani..

i would love to meet her someday too..

nakkwento daw nya kse ko sa kanya..

did he really meant it

when he said he would tell stories of me to his son..

i wonder..

i could only smile at those memories.

i loved him.

and at a time, he loved me too.

`.

'

i've moved on..

kay myk..

he held me like i was only his

sabi nya i was the best,

but he said he can't be the best for me.

nang hindi ko man lang namalayan..

hindi nya nako mahal.

bigla na lang..

parang isang laro na umayaw sa usapan.

but after all was said,

he was my koi..

i loved him.

and at a time, i know he loved me too.

`.

,

i've moved on

and here you are.

you never fail to bring a smile upon my face

you make me feel that im worth it.

sana ikaw na ang huli..

.'

`

So it's not gonna be easy.

It's gonna be really hard.

But we're gonna have to work this evryday,

but I wanna do that because I want you.

I want ALL of you.

Forever.

You and me everyday.

`.

'

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Nobody knows just why we're here

could it be fate or random circumstance

at the right place

at the right time

two roads intertwine

`.

and if the universe conspired

to meld our lives

to make us fuel and fire

then know wherever you will be

so too shall i be

`.

close your eyes

dry your tears

coz when nothing seems clear

you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight of your doubts and fears

weary heart

you'll be safe here

`.

remember how we laughed until we cried

at the most stupid things

like we were so high

but love was all that we were on

we belong

`.

and though the world would never understand

this unlikely union and why it still stands

someday we will be set free

pray and believe

`.

when the light disappears

and when this world's insincere

you'll be safe here

when nobody hears you scream

i'll scream with you

you'll be safe here

`.

save your eyes from your tears

when everything's unclear

you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight of your doubts and fears

wounded heart

`.

in my arms

through the long cold night

sleep tight

you'll be safe here

when no one understands

i'll believe

you'll be safe

you'll be safe

you'll be safe here

`.

put your heart in my hands

you'll be safe here

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got to visit this site from carla's blog. wla lang, i was so pissed off kse nagpunta ako sa schl, nang wlang kapararakan. tom nlang pla yung meeting. *sigh* kaya eto, comp lab sa goks. oh well, its a good thing, there's always free slots here.

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1.FIRST name: olivia
2.FIRST letter ng crush mo: hehehehe... sikreto
3. FIRST thing na ginawa mo ng magising ka: tumingin sa cellphone
4. FIRST thing na inisip mo ng magising ka: i have to call someone.
5. FIRST na tao na inisip mo [paggising]: hehehe.. yung sikreto ko.
6. FIRST na sinabi mo ng magising ka: shit, 5 na.
7. FIRST [song] na narinig mo ng magising ka: once in a lifetime by freestyle
8. FIRST na hinawakan mo ng magising ka: cellphone
9. FIRST school na pinasukan mo: san bartolome nursery
10. FIRST crush mo: emmanuel. haha, wlang maingay!
11. ilang taon ka nang magkaroon ng FIRSTcrush: cant remember.. tandaan daw ba.
12. FIRST love mo: uhm... dont know..
13. FIRST thing na tinitingnan mo sa guy/girL: eyes..
14. FIRST thing na hinahanap mo sa guy/girL: sincerity
15. FIRST thing na nagustuhan mo sa crush mo: being real.
16. FIRST thing na nakakaturn-off para sayo sa guy/girL: sinungaling, laitero.
17. FIRST thing na gusto mo sa isang tao: mabait
18. FIRST thing na ayaw mo sa isang tao: masama (hehe malamang)
19. FIRST thing na gusto mo sa sarili mo: pagiging good friend
20. FIRST thing na ayaw mo sa sarili mo: pasmado.. grrrrrr...
LAST
1.the last movie you watched?: butterfly effect. asshteeg. one of the best movies i've ever seen.
2. the last tv show you watched?: myx cguro..
3. the last song you heard?: dragonfly by spongecola
4. the last thing you bought?: hehe. e-load.. para may pang-text ako.
5. the last perfume you bought?: fake cool water for men na inarbor na ng kuya ko.
6. the last food you ate?: tuyo and egg, and sinangang.
7. last thing you wore?: shorts and shirt.
8. last thought on your head?: gusto ko sya makita..
9. last time you went out?: u mean gimmick.. cant remember. pero ang alam ko na last yung kasama ko cna almira and donna.
10. last time you talked to your crush?: hehe.. this morning.
11. last time you talked to your ex?: eon years ago..
12. last time you kissed?: kissed my dad and mom goodnight lastnyt.

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all i want for christmas is my two front teeth
my two front teeth
my two front teeth
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14 days to go, and it'l be christmas.
i love christmas. at kahit ano pa ang sabihin ni jerry.
de best pa rin ang pasko. hehe
pakialam ko kung magastos.
pakialam ko kung nkaka-stress.
don't care, any other day can be stressful anyway.

pag pasko, everyhting seems to be okay..
kahit malungkot.. sumasaya..
it will be a sin to be sad on christmas.
kaya mapipilitan ka tlga.
pag pasko, its contagious to be happy.
besides there's no better gift than seeing the people you love happy.
kaya:

ke me pera man o wala.
love life or none.
ma-stress man ang lahat ng nerves ko sa katawan.
heck,
itaga mo sa bato, magiging masaya pa rin ako.

nainggit ako kay carla, so i figured, id put my christmas lists.
i'd get 'em all someday.
(even if it means getting them myself) hehe

1. more happy memories. (to make, to remember, to cherish, to live for)
2. money.. hehe. d ako mukhang pera, mas masaya lng cguro kung makkakabili ako ng mga gusto ko ng hndi nanghihinayang sa presyo. at saka, pag may money na ko, mabibilan ko ng ng mgagandang gifts yung mga taong mahal ko.
3. i-pod. arrrgghh.. gusto ko.. gusto ko.. gusto ko.. pero kung wala, cge discman nlng.
4. digicam. i just want to capture moments. in that way, mas madaling balikan ang mga bagay-bagay. frustrated photograper dn pla..
5. ukay-ukay treasures!! yey! i know, i know, i know. they're cheap. la akong paki anganda eh!
6. movie tickets. gusto kong manood ng manood ng amnood ng manood ng manood ng movie. kahit ano.
7. laptop. hahahaha. ewan ko basta gusto ko na ng laptop.
8. wheels. hehe. yung may kasama ng makina ha. (i know its asking too much, but hey, a girl's got to dream)
9. just someone i could talk to and say goodnight to. (besides platonic friends) haha. you get what i mean.
10. gifts i could give to my family and friends. (ones they would actually like)
11. peace of mind.
12. world peace. (hehe, in my miss universe tone.)
13. ang paglago ng ekonomiya ng pilipinas.
14. ticket sa concert ni usher sa january. (syempre dapat may kasama!)
15. cds (session road, kitchie nadal, sugarfree, six cycle mind, mojofly, and hehe ung sweet album ni nelly)
16 extension ng phone sa room. i need it baaaaaaaadly. pag nagkataon, sa kawrto na ako titira.
17. a yorkshire terrier. cute eh.. :)
18. pillow. kse inagaw ni tita ung pillow ko.
19. pampa-rebond.
20. gamot pampatanggal ng pasmado. (plsssss.. Lord!)
21. unlimited access sa net.
22. patience sa masusungit kong kuya at ate.
23. smile for OJ, and a roomful (and more) of love.
24. anti-paranoia, worry-free life, and more years of friendship for best bud ava. (ava, peace tayo. hehe)
25. anti-stress for tina, and a whole lot of bottles of beer to chug.
26. anti-guilt, peace of mind for my dear mira.
27. a great job that donsky would love and be really happy for.
28. happy memories and fulfilling life for kel
29. less worries, less stress, more cuddles, more laughter, for my 'ol partner jani.
30. more time to spend with dandan.
31. haaaay.. more nice conversations with my really really nice friend ivy. and ah, sana, payagan na syang gumimick parati. :)
32. contentment for medz. (miss her so much)
33. marian's happiness, and time rin..
34. courage for aie, and more happy memories.
35. happiness for koi, hope he finds the one true love he deserves.
36. a cute and ncie boyfriend, and contentment for my ate.
37. sana maging friends na c kaye and yung crush nya.
38. for my kuya to have a happy family (less temper, i hope).
39. more harmonious and loving marriage for my parents and ah.. good sex. (hehe, wish ko tlga yun)
40. a future husband for my tita. pero kung wala.. basta sana makasama ko parati sya.
41. food for evrybody sa noche buena. and toys para sa mga little kids.
41. more christmas to celebrate. kaya sana mahaba pa buhay ko.

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can't wait.

i hate lamok!
i hate lamok!
i hate lamok!

tumawag c marko kgabi.

basta dati pa to..

before pa nung taong last na minahal ko.

bakit daw hndi ko hinanap yung nawala

bakit daw ako nag-settle nlang kung ano ung meron

bakit daw kse hindi sya ang pinili ko.

.

bakit nga ba,
ayoko na ng mga tanong na bakit
kse sa tooo lang
wla nmang katapusan yan.

lahat ng tanong na bakit, may kasunod pa ulit na isa pang bakit.

a friend once told me, isa lng daw dpat isagot jan..

"because i chose to."

.

bakit ko sya pinili?

dahil sya ang pinili ko.

and i had no regrets.

.

****

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if it makes you happy

it can't be that bad

if it makes you happy

then why the hell are you so sad.

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.

gusto ko sanang magtagal sa iyong tabi

sulitin bago ka umalis

nagdadalawang isip pa akong habulin ka

pero para saan at ano pa.

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kabado sobra nung wednesday.

defense proposal.

we thought it was the end of us.

kung pwede lang lamunin na kami ng lupa

nagpalamon na kami ni jani.

but then again,

totoo na 90% of what u worry about

is not goin to happen.

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ang hirap tlgang mawalan ng minamahal.

mas okay na yung niloko ka

yung pinagpalit ka sa iba..

yung hndi ka na mahal..

yung umalis nalang bigla..

kaysa yung alam mong

mahal ka..

mahal mo..

tapos

kukunin nalang sayo.

kung pwede lang mkihati sa sakit na dala nya

i wanted to say something na mkkpagpagaan ng bigat na nraramdaman nya

pero alam ko

nothing can suffice the pain of losing someone u love.

kahit anong sabihin ko..

it won't be enough.

dahil masakit mawalan.

~~~

but i just want you to know

you will never be alone on this.

andito lang ako, if u need someone.

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chani:

minumulto ng nkaraan.

hehe.