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When's my Next?

everybody's seem to be having their fair share of summer fun.
wonder when's mine gonna be.

i need my (once in a while) dose of sea, sand, and sun.
it feels like my last one
(island hopping at puerto princessa with my dearie almira)
happened eons of months ago.
i'm already itching for my next big trip.

***

My Donsol gettaway was a burst bubble.
what's supposed to be an experience with butandings
turned into an affair of idle time at work and brewing a plan on how to snatch my new crushie.
dont i have any better things to do???

haaaaaaay, i definitely need my vitamins..
re-living my bora vacation with ava, marian, and wanna..
as i peek into jani's bora album at multiply.
ahhh.. a place of heaven.




Come Sunday.
Club Manila East will be our paradise.

oh well, if i can't have the beach just yet,
a trip to the pool will do. :)
i may not have the view, but i can have all the laughter i need.
hey, i got my GF girls with me, what more can i ask for.

Super Heart

sometimes i marvel at the vision i see,
as i stop and ponder
what hearts are really made of..

in life, i've come to realize
that our hearts are the strongest organ we have.
it's so invincible, it stands even at the most arduous of times.
it challenges the depths of its limits,
it can defy the gravity of patience, principle, and truth.

our persistent hearts often choose to grasp onto things not meant for us.
it falls in the abyss of the unknown.
it comforts itself in the winter of its loneliness.
it takes courage from a single laugh, a gentle touch,
a soft whisper from a friend.

it at times shatters,
it bleeds,
it breaks down to pieces.
and with a sprinkle of care,
it puts itself back to whole again.

fascinating isn't it?
...the wonders of a beating heart.

what hearts are really made of?
its a mystery, we all have yet to unfold.

they say we have a crazy family.



hmmmmmm..
that's not so bad right?


on the night of saturday last 19th of April,
my dad, mom, kuya, ate, bunso, tita, gerps ni kuya, (kumpleto!) and I, all went straight to Laguna to attend my cousin's little kid bunso, (so that makes her my pamangkin!) Kate's 7th birthday. They rented a private pool for an overnight partaaaaaaay (includes 3 airconditioned rooms, billiards table, and the most important of it all.. a Videoke!)

As usual, we came in late, but this time we got there ahead from the rest of the Plamenco Clan. In family gatherings like these we usually get teased for not being on time, and for always being the ones to get to the meeting place last (my mom's the culprit, i'm telling you).


Here's some shots taken on that faithful night:




Kate (the birthday girl) wearing the princess Belle gown, with her cousin and my pamangkin Ginger.








gorgeous peeps, starting the night at the veranda
(from left to right):
getty, me, kaye, claudette, sam, au, grace







fooling around! throwing people to the pool. (ang lalim kaya) lahat basa na except for me! ahahha beh!!







after sampling the videoke.. pose muna.








astig pic, drinking the night away. one bottle plang for me.











taking a dip with sisters, cousins, and pamangkin.

just to share a pic taken by Dayon on his trip to Sagada.

ganda tlga.. it seems so peaceful.
at malayong malayo sa nakagisnang araw-araw.

haaaaaay... i definitely need to go back.

try try if i can cross-post from blogger to multiply. hope this works.

*todo cross fingers*

I know this site's not much.. but hey wont hurt, right?
yung may mga malambot (at kahit matigas din) na puso jan..
please take time to read below's plea.
a call for help..
the child is a pamangkin of a good friend.
yung may mga extra money jan..
paki nalang. :)
may it be returned to you a hundred.. heck, a million fold.


**************


My name is JOSH GERARD BIHASA SAAVEDRA. Please help me live. I was born on October 9, 2006 with Alagille Syndrome. A condition where the liver does not have enough bile ducts.As a result, the bile builds up within, and is destroying my liver.

I need a liver transplant in order for me to live. Pediatric liver transplants can be done at the Philippine General Hospital or at the Chang Gung Memorial Hospital in Kaohsiung, Taiwan, the Glen Eagles Hospitalin Singapore, or at the Queen Mary Hospital in Hong Kong at a cost ranging from P4 million to P7 million. My parents, Jo Ann and Gerardo, can’t afford such huge amounts, that’s why I appeal to your charity and compassion. Please help me raise money for my liver transplant. Any amount you can contribute will help to ensure my survival.

You can deposit your donations at any BDO branch. Account name: Josh Gerard B. Saavedra. Account number: 0470405643. You can also send your donation to our home address: Block 141, Lot 6, Phase IV Mary Cris Complex Brgy. Alang-Ilang, Gen. Trias, Cavite.

You can contact us at telephone Nos: 09185764510 and 09186579961. You may also course your donation through the LIFT-B.A.B.I.E.S. Foundation, which is assisting my family, by depositing it at any BDO branch, Account Name LIFT-B.A.B.I.E.S. Foundation, Inc., Account No. 0230-00198-7 (please inform the foundation of the amount and date it was deposited).

For further information about me, alagille syndrome and liver transplants, please call the foundation at telephone nos. (632) 824-4621, 0918-9263237 or 0918-9096680, or visit them at 32 Sto. Domingo St., Valley XI, San Antonio Valley Subd., Paranaque City. For further information about LIFT-B.A.B.I.E.S. Foundation, please visit its website at liftbabiesfoundation.org.

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"Sometimes pain becomes such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there. Because you can't remember a time when it wasn't. But then one day, you feel something else. Something that feels wrong, only because it's so unfamiliar. And in that moment you realize, you're happy."
-Lucas (One Three Hill)

hindi ko rin alam kung bakit..
but sometimes people choose to wallow in their sadness.
is it because we are afraid?
afraid to be finally happy,

only to lose it again.

space between

Space between.
What is this void between us?
I feel this narrow space of bottomless solitude.
A single mistake can lead me to fall off the edge.
It can be my reason of death.
Falling.
And no one to catch me.
So close, yet out of reach.
A promise i cannot have.
A dream doomed to stand alone.

My Good Friday Guy

i've spoken with someone interesting through ym.
i didnt expect that time would really pass by so quickly.
we finished at around past three in the morning.

I've never had a decent conversation with a same-aged (or so) Christian guy before.
he was different.
He was no saint, but he spoke about God,
and how he's guilty for sinning.
And sometimes he bargains with God, like I do.
(not sure if that was a good thing)
*chuckles*
he said he's doing something, he shouldn't be doing, but cant help but doing.
(anudaw??)
it drives me crazy just thinkin about it.
(maybe i'll ask him about it again, and get some more clues.)

He's fairly attractive,
just the right height, nice eyes, matipuno (di nya alam yung word na matipuno.. hehe)
modest.. polite.. sporty..
and he loves dogs! :)

i dont know him too well, but i can say, he's a good guy.
besides he was able to jump in my wagon of senseless thoughts.
gotta give him props for that.
*laughs*

***
sigh...
and why was i talking about him again?
Oh.. right.
i was just saying,
i think he's a good guy, and.. i'm looking forward to our next conversation.
i just hope he's not too busy.

beginning

it gets easier
when you realize your worth..
when you learn you don't have to settle for less..
when you believe you deserve better.

it gets easier

when you realize that you cannot give anything you don't have.

when you finally accept that you can be loved.
when you decide to love yourself as well.

and then you start hoping again.

:)

-for joe, cams, kaye, almira, ava and me

a number of Firsts

Come 8a.m.

it was my first time to check-in at the airport on my own.
it's just a domestic flight, so its not such of a big thing,
but still, a first time is a first time.

i found myself people watching again,
while trying to figure out what next step i was supposed to do.
which should i do first?
the checking-in, or the paying of the terminal fee?
where the heck is the check-in booth and the baggage counter??
(im a big wreck when it comes to these kind of things)
i forget almost everything, as if it was my first time to travel as well.

i was scolding myself as i felt my heart beating faster,
Ola, this is the third time you're going to do this,
What, Are you suddenly suffering from a bad case of amnesia??"
i was panicking a little,
Well, what if I am!!! This is my first time, alone!
san ka na ba almira... pls hurry up.
i knew i was already over-reacting..
so i calmed my nerves and found myself laying eyes on a sign board.

i saw it, finally. Cebu pacific: Puerto Princessa
"Ahh.. there it is."
there was a long line forming.
(but the flight to Kalibo was much much longer)
most of the travelers are couples.
i was a bit jealous, to be honest.
while, I.. I was the only lone backpacker.

i was already contemplating on whether to board the flight or not, just in case almira will be excessively late.
i was preparing myself for the worst.
to my relief, almira made it right on time.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay..

i can smile now. :)

fast forward >>>>>>>>>>>

Highlights of our gettaway:

Butterfly Farm

first time i saw cocoons.it's a bit icky. but it's amazing to see them in groups. and I saw a lot of butterflies too! good thing they just flew over or pass me. (scared of insects).





the under ground river.


another first! although its my second time to enter a cave (my first one was in sagada), this would be my first time to explore with us in a boat. it was quite a long trip. we have to travel by land for about two hours, and then board a banka for 20mins.




limestones:

palawan is also famous for their limestones, and so we cannot pass up the chance to take a shot.





Kalui's

Fear Factor Challenge: to eat Tamiluk, a local delicacy. The main ingredient? .~' worms.'
"Almira.. do we really have to do this.. parang di ko yata kaya.."
"Ola, ang arte mo ha.. nandito na tayo eh.." She said it's a must that we try, it's part of the tour.
i heaved a sigh.. i realized, i wont be able to get out of this one..
"Kuya, chopstick pls.."
.
...
I knew we were going to regret this, the moment the waiter laid our feast of worms on the table.
it doesn't even look a bit tasty.
Almira insisted that i go first.
"bat ako..."
i didnt have enough strength to argue, so i figured i might as well go for it.
Just pick the shortest darn thing, shove it to you mouth, and swallow.
don't think about it.
dont taste it.
Just swallow.

Well, okay.. here goes..
"...Ulk.."
i tried my hardest to push it down my throat.
"...Uggghh.. cold... and slimy.. tastes like worm.... Ugghh.." i washed the after-taste with my Sprite.
Almira, was smiling like a little kid.
Grin all you like, you're next.

It was a success!!! we were able to eat a whopping 2 worms (one for each!)
*applause*

and gave the rest to manong tricycle driver.

Back to Reality

just got back from an hour and so flight from Puerto Princessa Palawan.
"Aaaaahh.. back to the city..
back to my old reality.."
although i missed my girlfriends at work,
i can't stop myself from feeling down.
i can feel my body tensed
as the calming effect of the clear blue sky, and pristine waters of palawan quickly expired.
Coming back, i was reminded of the life a left 4 days ago:
waking up early (i know, i know, i'm sooooo lazy..)
filling up blockings (and its choking me to death)
another sales meeting tom (don't have anything to report)
it means..
another... dragging.... day.....
and to add weight to my misery,
i have no buck to spend for the days to follow.

if there's one worse thing in my life, it's work.
is it a crime to say,
"i hate my job."
and everyone who's tired of hearing me complain silently asks,
"then why the hell are you still staying, stop whining, and get out of that shithole."
"i can't leave.. yet.
we don't have a corporate sales rep..
i'll miss my friends.. i know i'll just be miserable without them..
i don't know where else to go, what kind of work i'll do..
or maybe i know,
but i don't know how to get there..
what if i'll make the wrong decision..
i'm scared.."
is it a bigger crime to admit,
that leaving my job
scared the living lights out of me.

creating my own bucket list (things to do before i kick the bucket)
inspired by the movie.

it's still not complete yet.
making a list on my "not-on-line-journal"
will post it here as soon as i finished.

-----

ava wont be able to come with us to Palawan.
i was disappointed.
we have been waiting and dreaming of this for days and days..
and then in a snap, she's not coming.
my excitement level went from insanely excited to just plain excited.
it just won't be the same without her.

but never the less.
the trip would be just me, and my dear dear friend almira.
she has always been one of those friends i have, that i know i can never afford to lose.
and i'm thankful despite our "busy" schedules, we still have time to see each other.
i worry a lot about her these days.. (nahawa na yata ako.. hehe)
i'm a bit scared, i wont be able to cheer her up.
this is supposed to be the "forget-about-the-world-we-got-back-home" kind of trip.
so i sure don't want to mess this up.

pimp

Glitter Graphics

pimp my man!!

hehe. peace tayo sami. :)

Find the joy in your life.
-The Bucket List

one more week to go, and we're off to Puerto Princessa Palawan.
The Last Frontier.
i can't hardly wait to see the pristine waters, and majestic caves.
and be with two of my bestest friends, ava and almira.
But before that, of course
Jacq and I should perform first a miracle
to sell blocks of higher-rate seats departing to the land of the arabs.

well then, we'll both have to put on our harworker hats
and hope the universe conspires.

arabian nights

stumbled upon a site called blingee
http://blingee.com
where people can attached cute/funny tags to their pictures.
i got the chance to play with some, and put a little bling-bling on my treasured pics
(thanks to cams, who graciously made a fool out of me and eileen)


here's a peek to my masterpieces.



mmmmmwwwaaah!!




love my GF girls!!




pia and camille in real life




kissing game, anyone?

Mine to Remember
Waz

You weren't the first,
But you'll be the last, to see inside.
And something suddenly changed
Inside of me,
You tore apart

Give me half a day, just so I can say
I love you
And take it all away
And maybe you would say you miss me too

You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember

At first you said it was real
You said it felt right
Deep inside
But now you need space and time 
To get yourself right,
I'm in between

Give me half a day just so I can say
I love you
And take it all away
And maybe you would say you miss me too

You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember

Walk away, don't walk away from me
Walk away, don't walk away from me

Give me half a day just so I can say I love you
And take it all away
And maybe you would say you miss me too

You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember
You are mine to remember

Give me half a day just so I can say...
...I love you.

a shout out sa lahat ng nag greet sakin:

ava

marian

nikka

jani

eileen

cams

almira

pia

jacq

sir pep

sir james

ivy

donna

cons

gil

rizza

khen
jill
jm
randell
michelle
ate carol
ms. zen
cherry
yana
claudette
sam
mariciel
kuya geejay
ate gingay
kel
aie
aj
ate ianne
charm
wana
chat
tina
sami
mom
dad
kuya
ate grace
kaye
tita
travel agents

bakit ganon...
sobrang gastos ko na ba talaga?
halos mag tatatlong taon nakong nagttrabaho..
pero ni isang kusing wala akong naipon.

sabi ko nga.. simple lang ang pangarap ko.
ang magkaroon ng masayang pamilya.
yung meron akong apat na anak at asawang kasama kong matutulog bawat gabi.
yung kaya kong ibigay ang pangangailangan at mga simpleng bagay na ikalulugod ng puso nila.
kahit hindi na kami mayamang mayaman. (mayaman lang, okay na.)

pero pano kaya mangyayari yun.
ni hindi ko alam kung saan at paano mag-uumpisa.

malapit na akong mag birthday..
kung pwede lang sana na paurong ang pagbibilang ng edad.

bente-kwatro.
dalawamput-apat.
twenty-four.
24 years old nako.

pakiramdam ko, hindi ko pa rin alam kung saan ko dadalhin ang mga paa ko.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...

mahilig ako sa ganyan..
sa isang napakahabang at napakalalim na buntong hininga.
madali kasing gawin.
walang masyadong salita,
pero naka buod na doon ang lahat ng nararamdaman.
ang hirap kasing magpaliwanag minsan.

hindi mo alam kung may nakikinig..
o kung kung may makakaintindi.
kaya yun nalang ang ginagawa ko..
bubuntong-buntong hiniga sa tabi.
itapon nalang sa hangin ang lahat ng hinanakit..
ng pagod..
ng mga bagay na nais abutin..
ng mga salitang hindi mailabas ng labi.

kahit papaano, pakiramdam ko..
nabubuhat ng hangin ang konting bigat na nararamdaman.

*ngiti*

excited nako magpalawan.

if i have a sin.
this one tops my list.
ang gumastos ng walang pera.

meron nakong ticket.
credit card ni tita ang ginamit.
3400, ang kailangan kong bayaran at the end of February.
pocket money. san ko huhugutin yun.
kakarampot lang ang sweldo ko.

kalahati napupunta sa pamasahe. at konting pagkain.
10% sa church (sana nga madagdagan ko pa ang pagbibigay.)
another 10% sa ipunan namin ni jacq.
tapos the rest, im hoping na makatulong ng konti sa gastusin sa bahay.
medyo hirap kami sa financial ngayon..
kaya medyo naguguilty ako dahil ni hindi man lang ako makatulong..

tapos aalis pako..
naguguilty ako..
pero gusto kong umalis.
i felt that i need this.
i need this to clear my mind.. to rest.. to be happy.
dahil kung hindi.
i just might break down.

haaaaaaaaaaay...
Lord.. help.

Balance Inquiry [ ENTER ]

- ,- - - . 0 0

what?? that was all it?
is this all i get for 14 days of gruelling work?
the ATM machine taunted me with an answer,

yep.. that's about everything.
and do you want a receipt to go with it?

No. [ ENTER ]

I don't know why I still get shock every time.
as if one day, i'll be able to see a miracle happen before my eyes.
i guess, i never stopped hoping that it will.

i heaved a sigh.
will it ever get better?

someday..
someday i'll get my worth.

"Long day at work..?"
"yup... long day.."

was it that obvious..
i checked myself in the mirror.
tired eyes.. i can see little wrinkles forming under my eyelids.
i shoved some stray hair from covering my face and tucked them in my left ear,
used my fingers as a comb, and pat an oil-blotting paper on my cheeks.

kailangan ko na nga yatang mag-stress stabs.

"what the world really needs is more love and less paper work."
-Pearl Bailey

bakit ganon.. pakiramdam ko,
ako yung kontrabida..
sa pagkakaalam ko.. wala naman akong ginawa..
wala naman akong dinehado..

wala rin naman akong sinisisi.
alam ko anman na walang may kasalanan sa nagyari.
tanggap ko naman ang lahat.
hindi ko rin naman ipinipilit na makibahagi pa sa mundong hindi na akin.

pero masama ba..
masama bang masaktan.
maramot na ba..
kugn naisin ko mang angkinin ang mga ala-alang noon ay amin lang.

pasesnsya ka na,
kung hindi kita kinamayan.
pasensya ka na,
kung kulang pa yung ngiting ibinigay ko.
pasensya ka na,
kung nasasaktan pa rin ako.
hindi naman ako perpekto..
hindi lang ako kasing lakas ng inaakala ninyo.

IT's GOOD TO BE IN LOVE
-frou frou

I don't know where to start
Say I'm tired or throw a party
These cucumber eyes are lying the more that I smile about it
And all of my clothes feel like somebody's old throw aways
I don't like it

It's good to be in love
It really does suit you
Just like everything
I'm happy you're in love
'Cause every colour goes when you do

I'm adoring you
It's all good
You're so beautiful
I'm black and blue all over




You're breaking my flow, how could you know what I'm saying
about it
When all of my clothes feel like somebody's old throw aways
I don't like it

It's good to be in love
It really does suit you
Just like everything
I'm happy you're in love
'Cause every colour goes when you do

I feel so powerless
I've got to stop it somehow
oh come on, what can I do

Why's it happening
How's it happening without me
Why's it happening
How's it happening that he feels it without me

It's good to be in love
It really does suit you
Just like everything
I'm happy you're in love
'Cause every colour goes when you do

Happy you're in love
Happy you're in love
I'm happy you're in love

why do you always have to ask the hardest questions.

i'm miserable with you.
i'm miserable without you.

---
i wanted to be yours and yours forever,
but i'm starting to feel like i'm becoming my own enemy.

you make me thread on a divided road,
one leading to your demise, one leading to mine.
either way i'm bound to lose.
so where do i go?

tell me please,
where should i go?

Fine!
Fine!
Fine!
Fine!

sometimes you can be so frustrating..
you're this hard shell, i can't crack..
nakakainis ka..

usual day at work..

i come in (hopefully not late)
check my e-mails.
check my bookings if already confirmed.
and do some serious dalpos (do all things possible for confirming bookings)



"Dalpo Pleeeeaaaaase, Ms. Rc. May OEC na, ready for ticketing."
*i give my biggest smile*
"Sure."


*i cross my fingers and hope the agent won't cancel*

sabi sa Bible study kanina..

All things will pass..
money.. beauty.. fame..
even the people who loves you, or the people you love..
will pass.
but only the Lord, your God will stay with you for all eternity.

another chit chat i think worth sharing.
itago nalang natin sila sa pangalang boy and girl.

***

boy: happy-yappy-happy-woooooooooooo! *smiles*
at least for a moment there i was happy.
and then it hit me....
boy: ano na naman drama yan ha ha ha
girl: well.. ewan.. mejo baliw ako nung time na yan..
hehehhe
boy: mga blogger talaga exhibitionist ng emotions
girl: ahahahahahah. wont hurt anyone
boy: yeah...
boy: you know I once had a blog dyan sa blogspot
girl: o ano nangyari
boy: but I kinda cancelled it
girl: why?
boy: well a friend of mine read my first entry
boy: sabi nya I sounded like I still love my first love after all these years, eh I kinda read it nga. baka may makabasa and think otherwise
girl: really.. he said that..
boy: yeah.. but what I WROTE LANG NAMAN IS HOW i MET MY FIRST LOVE
girl: sayang. hehe diko mababasa. pero oo nga bka mag create ng unwanted commotions
boy: sabi nya reading it, my use of words
parang ang lakas pa ng feelings ko daw ek ek
boy: kaya yan ang problema ng mga blogger, exhibitionist. gusto ipaalam sa mundo feelings nya
girl: hahaha
girl: well not all feelings
girl: since alam mo na may makakbasa na iba.. may mga bagay na dimo nilalagay
boy: well most of it
girl: i have one blog pero di sya open for viewing.
boy: kinda cyber diary
girl: yup.. minsan kse mas nkakapagisip pag nagtytype..
boy: but yung blog entry I kinda kept it
boy: sayang kasi
girl: penge pabasa :) para malaman natin kugn tlgang kahina hinala
boy: sige pabasa ko sayo. paki correct ng grammar. hahaha.
boy: but of cors I hide it from my girlfriend. baka magalit
girl: naku eh kung mabasa
boy: its just a short story I wrote years ago
*girl reading the blog entry*
girl: woah...
girl: haba nga..
girl: hehe..
boy: short story nga eh
girl: heheheh, teka wag ka magulo nagbabasa ako.
boy: ha ha ha
girl: 5th grade.. cute
boy: oh yeah, read it... mababaw lang yan
boy: pop goes my heart
*finishes*
girl: i guess it was the last line that sealed the "im-still-not-over-with-my-first-love" vibe.
boy: siguro.
boy: naging kami nung high school. senior, but she left me for her dreams
girl: ahh yun pla eh
boy: the usual chuva chuva, then nagkita kami nung highschool sa intramuros
boy: yung sequel medyo dark. actually painful
boy: ha ha
boy: kasi its like I keep chasing her. eventhough she love me... parang I keep losing her
boy: until... yung nga...
girl: awww.. damnit.
girl: bloggers.
boy: well you'll never forget your first...
girl: hehehe. true. true.
boy: siya buminyag sa puso mo eh
girl: first cut is the deepest..
boy: I think I still love her...
boy: in some youthful bitter sweet way, eventhough Im with my GF na
boy: and she's with someone else as well
boy: she's still embedded inside of me...
girl: hmmmm.. depends on anong klaseng love..
boy: oh yeah...
girl: siguro kse she reminds you of youth.. mas okay kse nung bata
boy: love is always subjective, suggestive, provacative, insipid
girl: laidback..
boy: of course. and care free...
boy: that love will keep us alive thing
girl: haaaaaay reminiscing..
boy: that we against the world
boy: you jump I jump thing
boy: ha ha ha
boy: so many things you can write about love
girl: sabi nga nila.. once you love, you never stop.
boy: lecheng pagibig to
girl: *chuckles*
boy: you know sometimes.. she would call....
girl: you still keep in touch?
boy: and strange may it sounds or feel.. I think we still have it... but better off hiding it...
girl: onaman.
girl: but.. you know.. i think.. its different with her.. and with your gf..
boy: siguro....
boy: its different
boy: ewan...
girl: kse maybe with her its a feeling of more calm.. more free.. kse you met her when everything is just so so simple.. i mean oo mahirap magin teen.. pero its way way hard to be an adult..
girl: mas complicated..
boy: oo naman...
girl: so i think, thats why everytime you think about her.. its reminds you of a simpler life.. its a good.. nice.. refreshing feeling..
boy: syempre parang time machine yun
girl: yeah. hehehhehe
girl: exactly.. time machine
boy: exactly
girl: magandang metaphor yan
boy: absolutely
boy: hayy...
girl: hehe.
boy: kinda miss her tuloy
girl: haaaay.. tsk tsk. tama na yan.
girl: hehe
boy: ha ha ha
girl: the past makes us who we are
girl: but the present,
girl: that's what will keep us going on.. and on.. and on.
boy: fist love will never die ek ek
girl: chuva
girl: para sakin, its more of.. true loves (no matter how many) never dies.
boy: hahaha
girl: all great love of a person's life leaves a mark. but that doesnt mean, one cannot grow with someone else or is not capable of giving greater love for the one who's willing to receive it and reciprocate it.
girl: ayun.. nagpaka-PWET (poet) na naman ako
girl: anyway.. sarap lang magpaka sensitive at times.
girl: hehe
boy: ayos yan :)
girl: an alternative from a world full of hard boiled eggs
boy: gaga
girl: hahahah
boy: pero oo nga.

*end*

kse ung the rest off-topic na.
wla lang just something to ponder on.

12 Things i should have done before the year 2008 ends.

1. Learn to cook. - para naman lalong swertehen ang future hubby ko.

2. Matuto sa mga short-cut at pasikot-sikot sa mga daanan at kalsada. - kelangan yun para pag magtataxi ako, alam ko na kung san padadaanin.

3. Mag-scuba diving. - hindi ako marunong lumangoy. pero okay lang, may oxygen tank naman. :)

4. Mag-travel ulit. - either sa Cagayan De Oro, or Camiguin.

5. Makabili ng DigiCam. - san kaya ako kukuha ng pambile...

6. Get Fit. - a healthy body equals a healthy mind.

7. A better, stronger and closer relationship with God. - papakabait nako.. promise..

8. Help change someone's life. - its a great great feeling when you know someone breathes even a lil bit better because of you.

9. Try to be on time. - mahirap, pero gagawin ko.

10. Discover a new Talent. - kahit ano, basta kelangan pag may nagtanogn kugn anogn talent ko, may masasagot ako.

11. Love my work. - sabi nga nila, "Pick a job you like, and you'll never work a day in your Life." I hope i find it.

12. LOve and Be Loved. - basta yun na yun.. hehe..

happy-yappy-happy-woooooooooooo! *smiles*

at least for a moment there i was happy.



mejo bad trip lang kse minigraine ako nung gabi.
di ko tuloy masyadong na-enjoy yung PhP150 t-bone na inorder ko sa steak md. (ang mahal ah!)
it's a good thing, umipekto kaagad yung chocolate na bigay ni jac at dolfenal na binili ko
and in no time, i was well and back to my old makulit self.

haaaaay.. it was a fun year-ender party
mejo sad lang kse hindi kumpleto.
pero still masaya pa rin kse dami ko nakuhang gift.
hehehe..

love you forever and ever girls!!!

and then it hit me.

it's not that worth it anymore.

it was a refreshing feeling..
like waking up on the dawn of a new day.

i'm giddy to start life.
again.
:)

i saw it coming.
i knew she would come.

he said he wanted to see me
and i believed him.

andaya mo..
sumira ka na naman sa usapan..
you're always the first to break team.
tapos wala na naman akong magagawa..
hindi ko pa rin makuhang magalit sayo.

****

hindi ko alam kung bakit
pero ang dami talagang tungeks na lalaki sa mundo ngayon.
pauwi nako galing megamall *salamat sami, sa pagsama*
nang may nakasabay akong dalawang lalaki.
"pare.. hindi ko mapigilan, binuksan ko agad yung gift nya.. na-excite ako eh.. pare.. ang sweet, natunaw ako. tinext ko agad, sabi ko.. i dont think i deserve this, hindi mo naman ako bf.. nakakahiya.. tapos nagreply sya, if you dont think you deserve it.. then earn it.. pare, diko na-gets.. ano ibig sabihin nun??"

nagtawanan lang sila.

tungeks.
edi ibig sabihin, manligaw ka.. woo her.. be deserving by being the guy for her.
tungeks tlga..
tsk tsk tsk.
haaaaaaays.. boys.

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay....
this is my first christmas that doesn't feel like it's christmas.

i did my usual christmas gift giving.
it always brighthens my mood, and gives that special ooomphff in the season.
natuwa naman sila, which is a good thing.
its a warm feeling, kahit mejo naubos tlga ang pera ko..
hahaha.
naguhong pangarap na talaga ung digicam ko..

work is stressful lately..
well what's new.
Jacq and I have to hit a target,
a seem to be impossible target.
and we're running out of time.

cross my fingers, and hope for a miracle.

(pasok ako tom, volunteer pasok, just to hit our quota, which i hope will be fruitful)
goodluck to me.

pero bakit kaya ganun..
parang iba tlga ngayon..
okay naman ako.
buhay pa.
kaya pa.
masaya naman ang karamihan,
masaya naman sila..
..hindi lang ako ganung kasaya.

just got home from shopping.
ang bilis talaga umagos ng pera palabas ng bulsa..
nung isang araw lang, hawak hawak ko ang buong thirteenth month pay ko.
it's not much, pero laking tuwa ko tlga nung nailabas ko na ung pera sa atm machine.
naisip ko:
sa wakas, may pambili nako ng digi cam.
konting dagdag nalang.. okey na.
nung tumingin ako ng masuwereng mapipiling camera..
kulang.
abot hanggang dalawampung libo ang presyo.
malayo pa ang lalakbayin ng kapal ng wallet ko.

kaya ayun..
naisipan kong mamili na lang ng regalo para sa pasko.
okay naman.
hindi pa covered ang lahat pero magaganda anman ang nabili ko..
yun nga lang, parang ilang segundo lang din ang pag-impis ng wallet ko.

haaaaaays..
makapag-wrap na nga lang ng gifts!

8 days to go!

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay...
we survived it.
the committee survived the night.

sabi nga namin ni cams:
never again!

ito lang yata ang christmas party na gusto kong matapos agad.
at syempre,
my christmas party wont be the same
without me receiving a disapointing exchange gift (mangkok na may takip) and raffle prize (payong).

haaaayayay!!


pero in a nutshell, it was a success.
di naman kami masyadong nagkalat..
kumanta lang naman ako.

hehehe.