i'm jumping up and down
clapping and all smiles
bursting with fruit flavors

i can't contain it
i am so happy.


***

is this what you want me to do.

ang kulit mo, wag mong ilalagay sa friendster
yung mga pics kong hindi nakatingin
dahil masasapak tlga kita.
ang daming oras kong hinintay na magpost ka ng picture ko
sa friendster mo,
pero hindi eto yun.
sadakong sadako. gulo gulo ang buhok.
anuba stressed ako nyan.

hindi ko alam kung bakit hanggang ngayon
may part pa rin ng buhay ko
na ikaw pa rin ang nagpapatakbo
kaya eto.. sinusunod pa rin kita..

o yan pwede na ba yan.
pinost ko na ha, sa blog pa.

hinahanap ang yong kamay
bakit ang hirap mong kasabay
lahat ng gawin tila sablay
balang araw walang maghihintay
handa bang magpaalam?
pag sapit ng dilim
ikaw ay mawawala
sa pagkaulila
ako ang kumot mong
di mo makita

-Anino
imago

i miss you guys.

so greatful i have you there you go gang.
*smiles*
tina and racquel were not present.
sayang.

i was rummaging through my e-mails
and was trying to find a copy of my resume.
when i stumbled into one of those forwarded e-mails
oj and i used to be so fond of

yung kwento ng italian guy na misunderstood.
it was so funny back then.
and it still makes me laugh as i listen to it.

http://www.sparkyblue.com/misc/italian_english/index.htm

ang kulet nito eh..
*chuckes*

i could still remember us laughing together.
fun times..

a month has passed by.

***

if i dont say this now i will surely break
as i'm leaving the one i want to take
forgive the urgency but hurry up and wait
my heart has started to separate

i'll look after you

will you won't you, be the one i always know

To you,

Hi there. *smiles..*
You hear from me again.
I'm sorry I have to bother you. I just don't have any one to talk to that may understand how I'm feeling. *laughs* I assumed you would, I'm sorry again.
You know him. You love him. As much as I do.
He will be fine. He's a big baby *smiles* but he will be fine.
I lost him.. a long time already.. or maybe.. I never had him..
I always hear your name a lot. Too much, that I thought it was a sign.
I've discovered about a month ago from my birth certificate, that the doctor who delivered me has the same name as yours. And so as my godmother whom I've never met. And there there was this travel agent that I spoke to from work. Yes, name same as yours. Every time I say her name, it felt like I was speaking to you. And every time I laughed with her, it felt like I was laughing with you. And then it so happens, my name is Olivia, and him, Oliver. I have this insane idea that all these names were connected for a reason. I was led to him, for a reason. I thought the reason was him finding a new love with me.
You might think I'm going crazy. *laughs* Well.. I guess you should. I did lose a couple of screws there. Well, okay maybe.. three.

But then, life has to whack me.

We had a simple fight, one of those petty fights that we keep on arguing about. Days after, I lost him. I lost my love. And now I'm here. Writing to you for the second time.
I'm sorry again I have to bother you.
Did you like me.. Did you think I was the best girl for him, after you..
I will understand if you will say no.
But I want you to know, I did my best. I kept my promise to you. I never left him.
I felt lost now.. I don't know where to go.
But he will be okay.. he's a big baby, but he's going to be okay.. *smiles*
We didn't had a chance to get to know each other, but I've known you in beautiful stories he shared to me. (I'm sorry, i asked him to.) We're not much alike, but I felt, we would have been friends.

Ang feeling ko talaga no.. hehe.

Well, thank you for listening. Yes, I know. This is what you and I want. His happiness. *smiles* I know I shouldn't cry now. I feel better. Thank you. I promise to keep an eye on him, even from afar.

Gnyt,
Ola

it was his pillow..
it was his sheets..
it was him
and her.

i've always thought he hates it when someone's taking his picture
kase pag pinipicturan ko sya
or magpipicture kaming dalawa..
ayaw nya..
or kung magpipicture man..
laging abnormal yung itsura.
okey nga yun eh, nakakatawa.
kaya lang minsan, syempre
gusto ko naman meron akong kuha kami na maayos
para pwede kong ipagmayabang sa iba.
"oy, eto o.. yung mahal ko, hindi to imaginary, eto tlga sya o!"
akala ko kse nung una, ayaw nya lang tlga
akala ko isa lang yun sa mga ka-weirdohan nya.

hindi pala..

hindi lang pala kase ako ang babaeng gusto nyang makasama sa picture.
umpisa pa lang ola..
umpisa pa lang..
hindi na ikaw..


***

ayokong magpaalam..
dahil ayokong mawala sya..
dahil hindi ko kaya..
pero hirap na hirap na ako..
nkakailang araw pa lang..
pero pakiramdam ko,
parang buong buhay ko na ang nagdaan.


***

bits and pieces of us flash into my mind
as i turn off the light and lay on my bed
and cry..
did i mean anything to you?

did i even mean a thing to you..

halos mamatay ako..
halos mamatay ako.

alam kong lagi kayong magkasama
dati rati kase, ako yun..
dati ako ang katabi mo..
(masayang masaya ako sa bawat oras ng mga yon)
dati ako lahat ang may alam ng problema mo.
dati ako ang kasama mong kumain
..bumili ng mga kailangan mo
..at sasamahan naman kita.
tapos mang-aasar ka, mapipikon ako..
tapos may gagawin akong kapalpakan
..at magiging parang nanay na naman kita..
away ng konte, kakain, asaran, tapos tatawa..

okey na ko don..
hihingi pa sana ako ng higit sa binibigay mo,
pero iyon lang ang kaya mo..
inakala kong magbabago rin ang pagtingin mo sa akin
kaya hinintay kita

maraming beses mo namang ipinaramdam at ipinaalam na hindi ko na kailangang maghintay
pero ginusto ko..
ako ang nagpumilit.
ako ang umasa.
ako ang pasaway.

halos madurog ang puso ko nung nalaman kong kasama mo sya
sa mga lugar na dati'y ako ang dinadala mo.
halos mamatay ako nung nalaman kong gusto mo sya
halos maubusan ako ng hininga nung nalaman kong kayo na.
higit pa nung nalaman kong don ka natutulog, at Bubba ang tawag mo sa kanya...


ang dami kong mamimiss sa atin..
ni hindi ko alam kung saan at paano mag-uumpisa.

***
Lord, bahala ka na sa puso ko..
salamat dahil sinagot mo ang mga panalangin ko..
dahil ngayon nakahanap na sya ng taong mamahalin nya at mamahalin din sya.
Forgive me Lord,
dahil alam ko maraming beses kitang kinalimutan
maraming panahon na isinangtabi kita.
alam ko, hindi ko deserve ang lahat ng mga blessings
na binibigay mo sa akin..
pero sisikapin ko, Lord.
sisikapin kong maging karapatdapat sa pagmamahal mo.

mas masaya ba syang kasama
mas maganda
mas matalino
mas mabait
ginawa ko na ang lahat para hindi mo makita sa iba ang lahat ng hinahanap mo
pero wala ka paring nakita
bulag ka pa rin pagdating sa akin.


...




iyo na sya..
iyo na sya..


siguro ikaw na nga ang hinahanap nya.

two years and three months.
happy monthsary. *smile*

there's so many things i waited for him to do
and so many things i thought were ours..

but now, nothing's left..
nothing's left.

it's seems like
every memory is sucking the life out of me
and i don't know if i'll ever be the same again

****

"oh simple thing, where have you gone
i'm getting old and i need something to rely on
so tell me when you're gonna let me in
i'm getting tired and i need somewhere to begin
so i you have a minute, why dont we go
talk about it somewhere only we know
this could be the end of everything
so why dont we go
somewhere only we know.."

Somewhere only we know
Keane


yung makati.. glorieta.. taft.. mcdo.. greenbelt..
yung 7/11.. mini stop.. netopia.. egg..
tokyo tokyo.. yoshinoya.. kfc.. jollibee.. NYFD..
yung eskimo.. yung mr.choi..
yung fries.. big mac.. yung ice tea..
yung kwarto mo.. yung veranda..
yung park..
yung antayan ng jeep sa may labas ng meadowpark gate..
yung mga panahong magkatabi tayo habang bumibyahe papasok sa trabaho o pauwi sa bahay..
yung starbucks..
yung waltermart..
lahat hindi na sa atin..

may nagmamay-ari nang iba..

i had this crazy feeling that we were meant to be together
even if it meant feeling it alone

i remember the first time we met..
unang araw pa lang pinakita ko na agad ang tunay na ako
syempre kailangan may palpak..
*chuckles*
ayun, natapunan kita ng unang bagay na binigay ko sayo
...chocolate mouse.
nakaputi ka pang polo non.
pormadong pormado.
pormal. malinis.
samantalang ako...
nakaitim na sando, nkapalda na parang ukot-ukot.
hindi maintindihan ang porma.
umpisa pa lang, nakita ko na
magkaiba tayo.

seryoso ka non.
akala ko nabigla lang tayo at nagkamali tayo ng desisyon.
pero habang naglalakad tayo,
hinawakan mo ang kamay ko
simula nung oras na yon
naramdaman ko na ikaw na ang huli.

***

malayong malayo ako sa lahat ng mga babaeng nagustuhan mo
magkaiba tayo mag-isip..
hindi ako singkit.. hindi rin balingkinitan..
marami akong kailangang ayusin sa buhay ko..
alam ko yun.
pero alam ko rin na mahal kita.
kaya pinilit kong iayon ang takbo ng buhay ko sayo.

malaking parte ka na ng buhay ko
hindi ko alam kung saang sulok ng mundo ako magtatago
kung saan wala ang alaala mo
gusto ko ba tlga na limutin ka
sa totoo lang hinde..
pero kailangan.
dahil mahirap...
mahirap isipin ka, nang wala ka sa tabi ko..

this is not goodbye...
you will never lose me.
i cannot deny that my days would be long without you
but this, i say
i will always, be yours
in special ways that no one can take away.
and in a secret part of my heart..
you will always be mine.
my squishy.

"cause you wanted more
more than i could give
more than i could handle
in a life that i can't live
you wanted more
more than i could bare
more than i could offer
for a love that isn't there.."

You Wanted More
Tonic


***

this past few weeks
i found myself at my lowest
always gasping for air.

i was walking home alone..
trying to drag myself into a house
where i have to pretend again
that everything is alright..
that everything is just how it should be..
i'm fine... i'm fine...
i'm trying.

is this what they all call broken?
i felt like i was floating..
breathing hard is starting to be a habit..
the darkness of the night
has become a silent comforter of my tired cries..
do i want to know more?
i don't know..
do i want him to be happy?
with all my heart..


i miss him terribly.
i listened to one of his voicemails
he said pangit for about 10seconds
i missed that.
ang pangit ko daw... *smiles* loko tlga yun...

a face forgotten,
i lay waste.

and while you have unknowingly razed and shattered me completely,
i wasn't able to manage even the slightest dent on you.

***

i lie on my bed of thoughts
of words striking a heart so weak
of tangled memories wishing to forget

unprepared of what's to unfold
broken spirit, wearied soul..

sleep it over now..
dry your tears.

maybe tonight will be a dream..


***

"hindi ka na mag-iisa
hindi ka na lululuha pa..
ligaya mo at pangarap na
hindi maging akin..
kundi para sa iba.."

Liham
Hale

++++

sinabi ko naman sayo yon diba..
na ang gusto ko lang..
maging masaya ka..

marami akong gustong sabihin.
..nang hindi ko kailangang umiyak..
pero mukhang imposible yata yon.
*tawa*
hindi ko alam kung ito man ang mga huling salita
na sasabihin ko sayo.
pero alam mo naman diba..
na mahal kita.
at wala na akong ibang hiniling kundi ang makita kang masaya

lagi ka na sa puso ko..
hindi ka na mawawala dito.

salamat.
sa maraming masasayang oras ng buhay ko,
kasama kita.

salamat.

i thought i would never feel it again..
or if i would, it thought it wouldn't hurt that much

i keep convincing myself not to.
feel numb.
feel numb.

feel numb.

please..
feel numb.

you can't do this..
you cant do this every night..
hide under your sheet while every one's asleep
and cry..
like a baby..

*****

it shocked me still..
i dont know why but it does..
maybe because i fooled myself into believing
that i would be someday enough..

+++

i copied the messages
and stored it in our pc's documents..
...and in my heart..
to remind me every time..
to make me numb..

Have a little faith in me

When the road gets dark
And you can no longer see
Let my love throw a spark
And have a little faith in me

And when the tears you cry
Are all you can believe
Just give these loving arms a try baby 
And have a little faith, faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me, 
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

And when your secret heart
Cannot speak so easily
Come here baby
From a whisper start
To have a little faith in me

And when your back's against the wall
Just turn around and you, you will see
I will catch your, I will catch your fall baby
Just have a little faith, faith in me

Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith in me
Have a little faith, faith in me

Well I've been loving you for such a long, long time 
Expecting nothing in return just for you to have a little faith in me
'Cause see time, time is our friend
'Cause for us there is no end
And all you gotta do is a have a little faith in me

I will hold you up
I will hold you up
And your love gives me strength enough to have a little faith in me
oh, heeeeey, oh darlin'
have a little faith in me

Faith

THE MASTERPIECE

"><

hehehe. had the most fun mcdo eating time with eileeny and camsy kanina.
sort of made me forget my own troubles.
(sayang wla ang the rest of the counter and resa clan)
sige tawa lang ng tawa.
magkwento ng mga kabalastugang pinag gagagawa.
magtanong. magduda. magkwento. tawa ulit.
tapos mag nose bleed.
na inspire ako kaya ginawa ko itong masterpiece na ito.
(please see above art.)

thankyou coolness friends.

may ever dependable co-counters and co-resa,
them eating, and me taking d picture. :)


haaaay... best times at work. dismissal time, and eating time.. and picture time.. and laughing time.. and himutok absorbing time.. mmwah

aylabdisguys!

its my birthday and i'll curl if i want to.. curl if i wan to..

shux.. 23.. im 23..

one tequila shot for the birthday girl!

when you realize that the sister of the one you love is mad at you
all your plans of happily ever after vanish..
it felt like the whole world had crumbled under my feet.
i didnt know what to do.

and for the millionth time in my life i just had to open my big fat mouth.
it was stupid stupid stupid.
this is one mistake i never get tired of doing:
letting my emotions get the better of me.

when all else fades
would you be there to love me..
when all else fades
would you be there to see right through me..

One day, Tippy, and Laila were running in the hills, they were having such a fun time, rolling, sliding, and climbing trees. Tired, they decided to rest for a while on top of the hill. Up there, they could hear clearly the singing of the birds and the whistling of the wind. It was their most favorite spot in the world. Laila had Tippy sat on her head, she had always felt that tippy loved the warmth of her blue hair. While enjoying the view, Laila saw something different hidden behind the bushes.


*to be continued...

Laila had a bestfriend, his name was Tippy. They were chunks of leaves crumpled to form a little boy. Tippy had yellow sunflowers as his hair, and had shredded red roses as his arms and legs. She never left the house without Tippy, even if most of the time some parts of Tippy fall out or get wearied. Since Laila and her mother lived in the woods, the poor little child did not have any real children to play with. Although, curious, Laila never dared to ask her mother about other kids, for she was afraid she would hurt her mother's feelings and think that she's blaming her for taking her away. So she kept all her questions inside, and instead let her heart wander in dreams and fantasies of what might have beens.

*to be continued...

***
i've always wanted to be a pre-school teacher
or a fiction writer of kids books.

well, here's my attempt:

***


Once upon a time in a forest far, far way, there was a sweet young girl named, Laila. Her skin was the color of the grass fields, while her long wavy hair was the color of the sea. Her face, exudes an air of serenity and comfort. Indeed, Laila was different from all the others and her mother was so worried the others would hurt her little child, that she decided to hide Laila in the woods.

*to be continued...

strange and beautiful

I've been watching your world from afar
I've been trying to be where you are
And I've been secretly falling apart
Unseen
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful
You'd be so perfect with me
But you just can't see
You turn every head but you don't see me

I'll put a spell on you
You'll fall asleep
When I put a spell on you
And when I wake you I'll be the first thing you see
And you'll realize that you love me

Sometimes the last thing you want comes in first
Sometimes the first thing you want never comes
But I know that waiting is all you can do
Sometimes

-Aqualung

***

sometimes i wish it could be that easy..
magickin ko kaya.
*twing* *twing*

Naghihintay, kahit parang walang pag-asa
Handa, maghintay kahit pa meron kang iba
Bahala na,
Naghihintay ako na ika'y makasama
Kahit na
Naghihintay kahit parang wala na.

`~.
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' .
`~



parang ayoko na..

***

*sigh*
another wishful thinking..
another fantasy lost..
another broken heart..

***

love makes you do crazy things.
...sometimes it can even surprise you.

***

ayoko na..
ayoko na, ayoko na..
ayoko na..

ayoko na..

`~ . if only saying it
would make me do it.

it's been.. what.. almost a year.

yes, a year, since my last post.

let me refresh.




december oh five:
christmas at my cousins with my family and him.
the whole day was happy. (sorry i had to use the most simple word, for thats the most appropriate word that would fit the feeling)
we ate noche buena. exchanged gifts. i got a bag, a skirt, a pair of earings, bracelets,
(haha, i know, i know.. babaeng bakla??) and some money. (enough to last me a week)
it wasn't extra ordinary. it was a usual fun day.
but it was something to remember, because he was there.
'.
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. '
"when my world seemed dull, i used to look at people who led fascinating lives and wonder.. how did their lives became so sweet. i discovered that they made a start, somewhere. that small start led to something else, and to something else."




january oh six:
new year's eve at home with family, and him.
went to the rooftop to view some fireworks.
(uso ang fireworks nun kaya namili ang tita ko. isa lang. pero 800 pesos na un.)
i filled my tummy with the usual feast,
held his hand, and shouted happy new year to every one.
*smiles*
`.
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'.
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"anyone who wants to learn, will learn."




february oh six:
oh well. this is my month.
turned 22. i am getting old.
its was also february
when i cried walking, not knowing where to go..
the first time in my life that i ever felt alone.
'.
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.'
'.
"people need nurturing. no matter how strong, or tough, or intimidating they may be. all of us need to be loved. we need to be felt, we need to be touched, we need some sort of manifestation of love."




march oh six:
i signed my contract. i got my raise. and i was proud of myself.
the pay wasn't that much, but i was smiling from ear to ear.
i did it. and they were impressed.
God is good. :)
'.
`.
.'
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"when the oceans rise and thunders roar, i will soar with you above the storm. Father, you are king over the floods. i will be still know you are God."




june oh six:
went to puerto galera with friends.
it was supposed to be a happy-happy joy-joy experienced, until we realized that we're going to be stranded. huwwwattt??? stranded tayo sa puerto?? may pasok pako bukas!!!! but hey even local storms cannot stop us frm getting our good selves drunk. bestfriends na kami ni jose! :D
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`.
'.
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`.
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"i still believe in paradise, but now at least i know it's not some place that you could look for. because it's not where you go.. it's how you feel for a moment in your life when you're a part of something. and if you find that moment, it lasts forever.."




august oh six:
oj's birthday. i could have done something great. i could have given him more. but i wasnt able to. i just wanted to make him happy.. i wish i could. good thing hindi umulan, pinagbigyan ni Lord, ung wish ko.
.
`.
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"sana'y maligaya ka lagi.. masaya kasama sa tuwina.. sana maligaya ka lagi.. masaya kasama sa tuwina.. hindi lang kung sa birthday mo ngayon.. kundi na rin sa habang buhay mo.."




october oh six:
i lost a phone again.. yep, you saw that right. another one.
you can call me stupid. anyone who is sane can call me stupid. how could i let myself do that?? *sigh* its done.. and now i'm paying for something i dont have.
thanks squishy, for helping me get through the night.
`.
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"when we fail to learn a lesson, we get to take it again.. and again. once we have learned the lesson, we move on to the next one."

crystal clear 

how life is strange and beautiful..
its been a while since the last time i wrote. i dont know if im just downright busy or just the fact that i have nothing to write about.

yet, a lot happened.
i got a job at an airline company. and i had to admit, it was a whole new world to me..
its been four months since. i got a raise. became on probation. got into the brink of almost giving up on the first real thing that i could be proud of.
meeting old friends and missing them as well.
meeting new friends and having alot of fun.
having things, and losing things.
laughing..
crying..
loving.

all of these.. and yet i did not lift a finger to put it all in black and white..
have i not learned anything?
didn't any of those things mean something to me?
i refuse to see until now.

i read jani's entries..
how life can be strange and beautiful.

..strangely beautiful.

its a mixture of everything.
of unforgivable pain.. and of unexplainable highs..
of bitter loneliness.. and of sweet comfort.
of misunderstandings.. and of patience.
of deep hate.. and of everlasting love.
of haunting pasts.. and hopefull future.
of ignorance.. and of truth.
of desperately needing.. and wholeheartedly sharing.
of looking straight.. and seeing beyond..
of losing something irreplaceable.. and gaining something precious.

life is a state where anything is possible.
where any time you could be the maker or the breaker.
where every decision matters.
where every move is a statement of your being.

and strangely, behind the chaos and the confusion..
the most important thing
is that we get to conquer and live it.

prayers

shut my eyes tight. hands clasped. and prayed. hard.
"Lord.. i just.. want him to be happy."

hindi ko na lang iniisip kung sya na nga ba ang huli.
kung sya na ba ang binigay sa akin ng Diyos.
basta ang alam ko, gusto ko syang maging masaya.
ayokong nakikita syang malungkot.. o nasasaktan.

i've once asked God for a favor. i bargained someone i loved for something that i asked for.
kya ayun-- binawi ni Lord si koi.

now, i'm bargaining again..
"..Lord, kahit humingi kayo ng kapalit.. okay lang.. just take away all his pain.."

i went out of the church, feeling a lightness in my heart.
Narinig kaya ako ni Lord..
Haaaaay.. ikaw na po ang bahala.

***
sana tumawag sya mamaya.

Quote of the day:
"Love, is above all, the gift of oneself."

sakto.
kakapanood ko lang ng meteor garden kanina.
the scene: hinayaan ni daomingsi na bugbugin sya ng mga kaaway nya para hindi nila masaktan si sanchai.
"kung lalaban ako, magwawala ako.. hindi kita maproprotektahan."
awwwwwwww... si dao tlgaaaaa.. aylavyu na.

****

mamaya, may aerokaebo ako.
areobics-karate-taebo
sinubanamang halimaw ang hindi papayat sa ganitong klaseng exercise.
eh kahit yata muscles ko sa alak-alakan gumagalaw.
kung sinusuwerte, magkakasix-pack na nga yata ako sa batok.

diet, exercise, and a lot of water.
go ola, kaya mo pa yan!!

****

*sigh*

bat wala pa rin tumatawag.
i need a job.
dati, hindi ko inakala na mag-aaply na kaagad ako.
akala ko, gugustuhin kong magpahinga ng mga ilang buwan.
pero ewan ko..
it just feels good having the power to take control of my life.
i was thinking..
this is it, this is my chance to prove myself to everyone.
and to myself
na kaya ko, na magaling ako.

pero bakit ganon, wla pa rin tumatawag..

sabi ni tina, accenture's considering my application for HR staff.
*waiting*
come on, phone.. ring.

gulf airlines: mukha namang positive ang response nung interviewer sakin.
she seemed interested.
and i tried my best to give a good impression.
gusto ko sa mga airlines, dahil gusto kong mag-travel.
i want to see the world.
gusto kong mpuntahan yung 8 wonders of the world.

seen the rice terraces.
i never thought it could be that beautiful, but it is.
ang ganda tlga ng mundo..
well.. sabi nga namin nila ava and almira,
"7 more to go!"

*sigh*
they say the best things come to those who wait.
haaaaaay, Lord.. ikaw na po bahala.

foolin around sa gate ng bahay namin.
"hun.. hindi monster ang camera.."
hehe.

i see your true colors
shining through
i see your true colors
and that's why i love you
so don't be afraid to let them show
your true colors
true colors
beautiful
like a rainbow

yay!!

281-22-nog-2-nog

may phone line na ulit kami!!
g'bye loneliness.
hello world!!
>chuckles<

***

went to see oj. (hun.. *sigh*)
hang around with him and his friends a.k.a business partners
great bunch.
papa chayi
boss martin
si joe
si hun.

took my exam
not so bad
(haha, if i would pass at all)
il cross my fingers

had a nice dinner conversation with Tina.
nilibre nya ko..
so i was both embarassed and greatful (gutom nako eh!)
sabi ko sa first sweldo libre ko sya jollibee.
hehe.
puffed a stick para kay tina.

went to see oj again.
tapos umuwi na.
mganda na sana ang isang buong araw ko at gabi
kung hindi lang sa kapal ng mukha ng isang manong sa jeep.
kaya pala kanina pa tingin ng tingin
kala ko wla lang magawa..
nung pagbaba ko, bumaba rin siya
miss, boypren mo ba yung kanina?
hindi ko pinansin at aba, sumunod pa rin.
'pwede mlaman number mo.. eto number ko..'
at parang wlang naririnig kong binilisan ang paglakad.
punyemimas, kung sino ka man
magnanakaw
manyak
o kung anuman.
lubayan moko!!!
ayaw!!!!
malas ka sa gabing ito.

ang friday the 13th tlga.. ayaw papigil.

***

fifth monthsary last 14.
gave him a bottle of 'us on water'.
(salt water from batangas by the way)
5 months..
im crossing my fingers.. again.
isama na pati mga daliri sa paa.

***

clock strikes at 2.. in the morning.

and in a moment.. it will be 3.

its weird how in just a matter of what seems to be seconds

you'll gain realizations, insights, ideas..

you've never known you could have.

tre mystery of late nights.

-==cute mo==-

.

.

sabihin sakin lahat ng lihim mo

iingatan ko

ibaling sakin ang problema mo

kakayanin ko

.

sasamahan ka sa tamis

sasamahan ka sa dilim

sasamahan ka hanggang langit

sasamahan ka sa tamis

sasamahan ka sa pait

sasamahan ka sa dilim

sasamahan ka hanggang langit

sasamahan ka..

.

-akap

imago

.

****

.

it isn't easy being you, i know..

it sure isn't easy being me either.

but i want you to know

here's a hug.

you'll always get a free one from me.

.

sasamahan kita, kahit saan.

(wag ka lang masyadong masungit)

*huuuuuuuug*